Dear Younger Self…

Dear younger self,

You don’t actually know me, but I certainly know you. Someday you will know exactly who I am, but for now, you are focused on exactly where you are right now.

You are about 17 years old right now and you are living life day by day. You have no worry of tomorrow and no care for the future. This is the time in your life when most of your worries and fears are what you will wear the next day or whether or not the cute boy likes you or not. I wish I could shake you and tell you to enjoy the days and soak up every moment when things are not so bad. I know they feel like the end of the world to you right now, but it isn’t.

In about 3 years you are going to elope and marry the one man no one would ever want you to be with. You will be stubborn and hold as tight as you can to the trust you have in this man you love in spite of his faults. You will have the hardest first year of marriage imaginable, but hold on tight because there is so much beauty in the end! You will be carrying your sweet baby girl in your womb while trying to keep your marriage in one piece, but be still because God will carry you. You probably don’t believe a word I am saying right now because I know who you are at 17, but hold these words close to you if you can. Once you are in this marriage, in spite of the level of difficulties, God will move mountains! You will see Him work in your marriage, in your husband and in YOU in incredible ways! Have patience and trust your marriage to rest in HIS hands.

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When Cancer Changes Everything Part 2

*Read Part 1 of When Cancer Changes Everything*

…Am I strong enough to lay in a hospital bed and trust God implicitly?

We have no idea what the next day ahead holds for us. We don’t know what the next hour or minutes will be like. It can be so easy to live every day like we have thousands of more days guaranteed. Life has never been a guarantee. In minutes you could go from home to a hospital bed to not being here at all.

I know this sounds morbid, but hang with me here. 

Everyday we have a choice. We get to choose how we are going to act towards others, respond to the people we love and who we are going to be that day.

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