Today has come.
I have often thought about this day coming and how good it will be for you. You have continually talked about this day and how excited you are. You are so ready, you are so brave and I know you will do great!
Today is day one of kindergarten.
It really was only yesterday I was cradling you in my arms. You were so fresh and new. That day feels so close to my memory I can almost smell that newborn smell and hear the first sounds you ever made.
It was just yesterday you couldn’t get yourself dressed, put on your own shoes and brush your own teeth.
It was just yesterday I had to lift you out of the van because the jump was too high.
It was just yesterday you learned to call me, “Mama”. The sweetest of words you spoke at such a young age.
It was just yesterday you took your first steps and every step you took you needed my hand to help you along the way.
Now I am walking you into your classroom. Your hand in mine. I am gripping your little hand extra today and just hoping that feeling of you close to me stays for the hours ahead.
I have prayed for this specific day. I have prayed so many details for this day that it would be the beginning of something wonderful in your life and you would find great joy in everything set before you here in this place. May you have such amazing adventures ahead.
You will find yourself frustrated somedays because learning new things can be hard. But I pray you will find confidence in your strengths and willingness to learn in your weaknesses. Never forget how smart you are.
You will come across kids that are unkind. I pray you will choose to stand up for yourself with kindness in spite of how anyone is treating you, because you are amazing! Never forget how loved you are.
There will be moments when you feel sad. It’s okay to have tears and your feelings are always valid, but I pray in your sadness you can find that beautiful smile of yours again and let it shine bright. Never forget to smile.
You will find yourself at crossroads in how to handle something. I pray you always choose to do the right thing no matter what anyone is telling you to do. Never forget how independent you are and remember you always have a choice.
You will have days where you feel afraid. I pray you will feel Gods arms wrapped around you and always feel protected and safe. Never forget how brave you are.
You will have days that you miss me and that’s okay because I will be missing you too. Never forget how much I love you.
I know you won’t always need my help the more you grow, but I am always here to help you in those times when you still don’t know how.
I know you won’t always need to snuggle me the more you grow, but I am always here to wrap you in my arms and be your safe place.
I know you won’t always need to hold my hand the more you grow, but this mamas hand is meant to hold yours and it will always be here when you need it.
I know you won’t feel like you need me the more you grow, but I promise you that I will always need you.
I will miss those quiet mornings together when it was just you and me, but I know this is your chance to spread your little wings and I am ready to be your #1 fan cheering you on as you grow and learn more!
So today you wrapped your arms tight around my neck and planted a big kiss on my cheek. “I love you mommy”, you said to me. I then watched you with your big backpack walking into a classroom full of so much unknown for you. So brave and ready to face the world. You’ve got this, little one.
You then looked back at me and waved goodbye with your little hand that was once holding my hand just moments before.
I want to just live in this moment right now. I want to remember the sweet smile on your face right now. I want to feel the grasp of your little hand holding mine.
This is the moment where I walk away, waving back at you, and trusting Gods hands holding my baby.
I can’t imagine any better hands to be holding you right now.
Spread your wings and fly, little one.