When Cancer Changes Everything Part 2

*Read Part 1 of When Cancer Changes Everything*

…Am I strong enough to lay in a hospital bed and trust God implicitly?

We have no idea what the next day ahead holds for us. We don’t know what the next hour or minutes will be like. It can be so easy to live every day like we have thousands of more days guaranteed. Life has never been a guarantee. In minutes you could go from home to a hospital bed to not being here at all.

I know this sounds morbid, but hang with me here. 

Everyday we have a choice. We get to choose how we are going to act towards others, respond to the people we love and who we are going to be that day.

Am I going to show kindness when it feels impossible to?
Am I going to love well when I THINK someone doesn’t deserve it?
Am I going to serve someone in their time of need in spite of what my calendar looks like?
Am I going to celebrate a friends accomplishments instead of losing my joy in comparison?
Am I going to be the person that people choose to spend their time with?

When my mom laid in her hospital bed she did all these things right from her bed. She supported, uplifted, loved, showed kindness and was certainly the person everyone wanted to be with. She continued to serve the people she loved in spite of how she felt and the state she was currently in. Why was she able to do these things so easily?

Because she trusted her God implicitly. 

She didn’t know what was going to happen the next minute, hour, day or week, but she did know that no matter what her days were already numbered from the beginning. She didn’t fear it and she didn’t worry about what was to come. Because of this, she poured everything she had into loving everyone and not worrying about anything.

Trust trumps worry.
Trust trumps fear.
Trust trumps stress.

I honestly don’t know if I would lie in my hospital bed with no concern. I’m not sure I could trust God so beautifully. I know that God never expects perfect trust from us, but thinking about this opens my eyes to see how little I trust Him sometimes. It’s so easy to be blinded by our worry, stress and fears that we don’t see the importance of loving one another. We totally miss opportunities to show kindness to strangers or uplift a friend in need because we are too busy.

I know it can sound cliché, but this statement is so true…

“live today like it’s your last.” 

Do it everyday! Trust God completely with your days, relax and soak up the beauty around you.

I picture my mom lying in her hospital bed and I don’t feel sadness. I feel a huge rush of joy run through my soul because when I picture her I see the choice she made. She made a choice and that choice was to see the beauty around her. She saw beauty past the IV, the pain meds, the dark hospital room, the constant beeping monitors, the smell of formaldehyde and even nurses that weren’t very kind. She chose to see life as beautiful.

So I ask you again, are you strong enough to lay in a hospital bed and trust God implicitly? Could you look past what is before you that is painful and see beauty instead?

What do you think people will see when they look back at YOU in your hospital bed? 

What do you think people will see when they look back at YOUR life?




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