While You are Waiting

Wait.ing
noun
The action of staying where one is or delaying action until a particular time or until something else happens.

I am not a great gardener. In fact my thumb is far from being green, but I do have an appreciation for the beauty that comes from a lot of hard work in a garden. My problem is that I hate waiting. I put so much work into laying fresh soil, planting new seeds, watering and more watering to just wait. While I wait, all I see is dirt. There is no beauty to enjoy in a pile of dirt. I know whats underneath the dirt, but I can’t see it. I won’t see it unless I wait until it grows.

I have this Rose of Sharon bush that a friend gave me awhile back and I got it planted, with help of course, in the perfect spot in the landscaping at my house. When I picture a Rose of Sharon bush, I picture absolute beauty, breathtaking colors, irresistible smells and fullness. When I received this bush, it was simply a stick in a pot. I knew it was going to become something great someday, but it required my attention, some nurturing, lots of learning on my part of how to best take care of it and patience to wait.

I hate waiting. 

I can not think of a time I have never been waiting. Everyone is waiting for something. Waiting for a phone call, your child to come home at curfew, the oven to pre heat, counting down days till vacation or maybe just waiting for tomorrow to come.

Maybe you are a stay at home mom and find yourself constantly waiting for something all day. Waiting for kids to get their shoes on, for rooms to get picked up, longing for nap time to come or watching the clock for the time dad walks in the door.

It’s amazing to think about how much waiting we do and sometimes with waiting comes worry. I’m sure we have all had moments in our life where we have faced a much deeper waiting. Thankfully the type of waiting that isn’t always daily, but it is or has been present in everyone’s life at some time. Its the kind of waiting that causes the most worry of all.

Waiting to find a job before you lose your home
waiting for a loved one to wake up from a coma
waiting for test results from your doctor
waiting for someone to take their final breath
waiting for your child to walk away from the wrong path they are on
waiting for your new baby to leave the NICU and finally be home

I have done a lot of waiting in my life, but lately its been deep waiting. Gut wrenching waiting that feels almost unbearable. It’s a season I feel currently stuck in right now, but I am so certain that beauty will grow from this pile of dirt. Not because I can see it, but because I have seen it done before.Someone once told me to stop waiting so much and just live where you are right now. She told me that I have a choice to be however I want to be in this very moment during the waiting. As I thought about that, I chose the word “bless” for the rest of the day and my attitude changed drastically. As I wrapped up my day I said to myself, “I’m going to love on my kids, I’m going to make them a fun dinner, I’m going to read extra books to them tonight and I’m going to tidy the kitchen to bless my husband.” Before that I had been worrying all day, talking non stop about the waiting, basking in what tomorrow was going to hold or what next week was going to look like. I was making myself crazy, but I stopped and made a choice.

I love the definition of ‘waiting’.

The action of staying where one is or delaying action until a particular time or until something else happens.

“Staying where one is.” When I read this I pictured myself sitting in front of my newly planted Rose of Sharon bush and just staying right there. Sounds boring? To me it sounds peaceful. Instead of pacing back and forth, over watering it out of desperation for there to be any change or stressing about the 10 day forecast, I’m just staying where I am. Right in that moment when that seed gets planted and all I see is a stick coming out of the ground, I just stay.So how do I stop worrying while I wait? I didn’t say you wouldn’t have moments of worry. But you can find peace during that time too. We have a magnificent God who sometimes writes our stories in ways we could never imagine.

“I’m afraid I’m going wake up to a foreclosure sign on my front door.” Don’t think about what you are waking up to, lay your worries at His feet and stay right where you are now and breathe.

“I’m afraid my loved one will never wake up from this coma.” Don’t think about what could or could not happen, lay your fear at His feet and stay right where you are now and breathe.

“I’m afraid the test results will say I have cancer.” Lay your results, whatever they may be, at His feet and stay right where you are now and breathe.

“I don’t want her to die, I don’t want that final breath to come.” Bask in those moments when there is breath, lay the breathless moments at His feet and stay right where you are now and breathe.

“But my child is so far down the wrong path, she may never come back to us”. Let Him carry your child and stay right where you are now and breathe.

“I feel like my new baby will never come home”. Stay so close, mama, right where you are now and breathe.

Just breathe.

The remainder of the definition says, “delaying action until a particular time or until something else happens.” 

We aren’t even waiting the right way! Delay any action until something happens. Just be where you are right now. This does not mean you will never worry, this does not mean you will never cry and this does not mean you will sit staring at your pile of dirt with a big smile on your face all the time. But, it does mean that you can rest in waiting knowing that God is going to do something. It may not be what you want Him to do, but you can trust that He is working to make something beautiful and new someday for you.

So delay any action not just until something else happens, but until HE happens.

Someday I will look out my front window and see this beautiful Rose of Sharon bush in all its fullness. But until then, I have a lot to learn and a lot of work cut out for me. I’m going to do my best to bask in the sunshine and soak in those cozy rainy days with pure joy in who God is no matter what my weather forecast looks like ahead. Because really, only God knows what the 10 day forecast actually is going to be and the outcome of your little pile of dirt.My prayer for you in whatever season of waiting you are in, is that you can find a place of rest in it. Look around wherever you are right now, what do you see? I see my living room couches that are very loved thanks to my children who use the cushions as stepping-stones. I also see toys on my floor that remind me of the fun my kids have together and I see cereal bowls on the kitchen counter reminding me of Gods provision in our home. What do you see around you that can bring you joy right now in this moment? I pray you can find yourself there no matter how long you are waiting.

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18 thoughts on “While You are Waiting

  1. Trish

    This is such a beautiful and inspiring post! I have been in waiting mode with a work situation lately, and I love your wisdom about staying where you are and remembering the word “bless.” Thank you!

  2. Beth

    It can be hard to wait, especially for the really big things that are scary and potentially devastating. Having a different way to frame it makes it more bearable.

  3. Rachel

    This is so well-said. I hope things get better for you soon! I’m totally with you on hating that waiting feeling – I always try to find something positive to focus on!

  4. Nicolette

    I’m currently in a spot of waiting and I hear you. It is not my strong suit. I get anxious and ridden with worry. But sometimes I just have to accept it and let the stress go.

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